Technically, the 3rd.

Why is it 4 am?

Okay, I'm not mad about this, so no one else out there in the universe can be either...I didn't get to the clubhouse and run on the treadmill.

Oops.

It wasn't intentional.  I was mid-getting ready when he got home, but then he ran through his routine and we started feeding Q and the baby and I got distracted and by the time bedtimes were over and everyone was taken care of, it was too late for me to go.

I'm not going to kick myself.

I need to be more clear about communicating my needs, too.
I need to send him a text when he's leaving to come home that says "Hey, I'll be getting my workout gear on, I'll help you get them started, but then I need to go before it gets too late."
I need to set my C25K schedule in writing.

He knows I want this.  He knows it means a lot to me.  He told me he'll support me in whatever way I want, whether by friendly competition, active participation, or just being there.  I think I may just want him to be there.  I don't want competition; I want to make a stand for myself, carve out a space in my life to be healthier and happier with what I see in the mirror, to stop hiding from the camera lens and the bathroom scale.

I'll work on communicating tomorrow.  Technically, I set my C25K schedule to begin Sunday the 13th.  I wanted to get a jump on it, start a little early, in case the week 1 and 2 prove to be too much lol.  By leaving myself a little room to start early, I could get a little more training in, work hard on being more ready.

Since I woke up and I can't get back to sleep, I've already popped in a workout DVD, I've tossed the few remaining straggler toys back into the basket, and I'm going to work out now.  I'm going to try my "10-minute" pilates DVD first, I have a bunch of those, you can queue up several workouts or just do one, it's one of those "hey, I have a few minutes of downtime" deals.  I love my yoga one.  The pilates one was still in the plastic, to my chagrin, but I'm up, I'm awake, better to work out for a while, take a warm shower and have a cup of sleepytime tea than veg out with a Netflix movie and a bowl of popcorn.  And if the sleep thing fails, even after all of this maybe THEN a movie, but not 'til after I have done some good for myself.

Anyways, time's a-wasting!  Time for trying something new, and then if I hate it, going back to the yoga workout I was starting to really enjoy before I got pregnant again.